More poetry

He disappeared in the dead of winter:
The brooks were frozen, the airports almost deserted,
And snow disfigured the public statues;
The mercury sank in the mouth of the dying day.
What instruments we have agree
The day of his death was a dark cold day.

Far from his illness
The wolves ran on through the evergreen forests,
The peasant river was untempted by the fashionable quays;
By mourning tongues
The death of the poet was kept from his poems.

But for him it was his last afternoon as himself,
An afternoon of nurses and rumours;
The provinces of his body revolted,
The squares of his mind were empty,
Silence invaded the suburbs,
The current of his feeling failed; he became his admirers.

Now he is scattered among a hundred cities
And wholly given over to unfamiliar affections,
To find his happiness in another kind of wood
And be punished under a foreign code of conscience.
The words of a dead man
Are modified in the guts of the living.

But in the importance and noise of to-morrow
When the brokers are roaring like beasts on the floor of the Bourse,
And the poor have the sufferings to which they are fairly accustomed,
And each in the cell of himself is almost convinced of his freedom,
A few thousand will think of this day
As one thinks of a day when one did something slightly unusual.

What instruments we have agree
The day of his death was a dark cold day.

(W. H. Auden, “In Memory of W. B. Yeats”)

Tea/coffee, English/Continental, Pym/Thirkell

I have long been a tea drinker. I normally make tea in the morning (loose if I have a little leisure, a bag if I’m running out the door or am just too groggy), and read while I drink it and wake up. One of my great pleasures when traveling alone is to take a cup of tea back to bed and read or write in bed, which I cannot do at home since Sir John and I live in different time zones.* At least, I do this when I’m traveling alone in England, where hotel rooms are always equipped with an electric kettle, or in the U.S., where there is always a coffee maker that can usually be coaxed to produce hot water that doesn’t taste too much like coffee if I take the thing apart and clean it.

However, Barbara Pym’s observations in Excellent Women about tea on the Continent still apply in the present day: “When it comes, it’s a pale straw-colored liquid . . . and the tea’s in a funny little bag . . and they may even bring hot milk with it.” As to the pale liquid, I might add that you’d be lucky; usually you get a pot of slightly-more-than-lukewarm water and the funny little bag still in a paper wrapper, and you have to inflict the making of pale and unsatisfactory fluid on yourself. The same points apply to many restaurants and cafes in the U.S.**

Thus, on my recent trip, after a couple of unfortunate mornings with straw-colored liquid, I resigned myself, with increasing pleasure, to cafe con leche rather than tea. It was of course necessary to get dressed and leave my room for this, because Continental hotel rooms do not provide kettles or coffee makers.**** I never thought of the French and Spanish as a batch of morning people, but apparently they achieve some minimal level of functionality before caffeine input in the morning, at least when they’re not in their own homes. (Getting the cafetière going is a recurrent trope in the modern novels I have been reading lately.)

After a week of cafe con leche in a southern Spanish plaza, tea chez moi just didn’t taste right. And so I thought that perhaps this year, my “something new and different” that “you didn’t do as a normal part of the work routine when you weren’t on leave” could be cafe con leche. It did occur to me that I run the risk of turning into an Angela Thirkell character:

“Eccomi! said Mrs Grant, throwing both arms wide so that her necklaces and her bracelets clanked and clattered in sympathy. “Eccomi!” she said again, stretching her hands towards her friends as a shipwrecked sailor might stretch towards his rescuers. “Sir Edmund! You remember me. Felicia Grant.” Sir Edmund said with great truth that no one could ever forget Mrs Grant. “Ah, we were younger then,” said Mrs Grant. “We meet now nel mezzo del cammin di nostra vita. But in sunny Calabria age has no terrors. A crust, a clove of garlic, what more is needed? Brother Sun and Brother Sleep.” Noel said under his breath And Brother Mosquito Net, which made Lydia laugh.*****

There are other risks, it turns out. Coffee-making is just too complicated for my early mornings. Tea involves putting on the kettle, scooping leaves into the strainer, and pouring hot water until the cup is full. I can cope with that, and there are bags to avoid the scooping step if I’m really groggy. But coffee requires finding the grinder, beans, filter, and filter-holder, and getting them assembled in the proper order. The beans go in the grinder, not the filter or the holder. Then it’s necessary to grind them menace the cats with Terrible Cat-Eating Machinery, which they flee; with luck they don’t knock anything over during their escape from the kitchen.******  Ground coffee goes in the filter, not into the cup or the filter-holder. The water has to be measured, and the milk heated, but preferably not boiled. After Caffeine, I could probably manage just fine. Pre-Caffeine is another story.

I can tell you that my respect for baristas has increased dramatically over the few days I have been trying to prepare coffee in the morning. No doubt there are shortcuts and gadgets that could change this picture. But the idea was to add pleasure, not to complicate my life. So I’m going back to tea. Coffee will just have to be reserved for Continental breakfasts taken on the Continent, where someone else operates the machinery.*******


*Same house. Different time zones. I’m New Brunswick, he’s Vancouver.

**At Peet’s Coffee, they know to put boiling water*** on a tea bag. They even sell loose tea. The place could just be called Peet’s Caffeine.

***I even know that water for tea should ideally be just off the boil, but let’s not get unduly fussy. I’d prefer the water be too hot than too cold.

****The Mercure at CDG had a kettle. No cups, or tea bags, or coffee packets. Perhaps you have to ask for the kettle set-up, as you ask for down-free pillows or a lighter blanket. Vive la France!

*****Angela Thirkell, County Chronicle (1950; rpt. Moyer Bell, 1998), 160. Mrs Grant also appears in The Brandons, but I think I must have purged my copy on account of its being excessively battered, while the library can supply me with a sturdier copy.

******Without luck, there’s more mess to clean up than just spilled coffee grounds.

*******If I’d thought ahead, I might actually be spending my sabbatical abroad, but (as usual) the home situation is just a little too complicated to allow us to pack up and move for a year. Too many cats, too much house. I am not Excellent Woman enough for that; or maybe I am, precisely, Excellently presiding over my own home instead of gallivanting adventurously abroad. Perhaps I should have studied anthropology like Helena Napier, instead of getting involved with English Literature.

Deux pensées

Est-ce que les idées nous attendent si longtemps? C’était peu probable. Les idées patientent un peu, et partent à la recherche d’un imaginaire plus accueillant. (123)

On n’écrit pas parce que la vie vous laisse du temps libre. Il faut organiser sa vie autour des mots, et non le contraire. (268)

David Foenkinos, Je vais mieux (Éditions Gallimard, 2013).

I now pronounce you partners for life

After all the lawsuits, all the people who died separated from their partners because of familial homophobia, all the outrageous death duties because gay partners weren’t covered by the same inheritance rules as straight marrieds, all the officials who here and there declared that they would issue marriage licenses to gay couples (like Gavin Newsom), all that and more.  Everyone can now have the next-of-kin of their choice.  Let’s have a really bang-up reception to celebrate!  Let us eat cake!  Champagne fountains for all!

An on-campus day

Up a little before six.
Go out and walk about a mile, just to say I had some sort of exercise.
6:30, return to house, make tea.
6:45, translate 7 lines of [dead language] for my weekly [dead language] reading group.
7:15, feed and medicate cats, boil eggs and make toast to take in the car.
7:50, get dressed, gather up books, laptop, breakfast, lunch, and snack.
8:05, leave house.  Drive to nearby college library to check out book I need for discussion with independent study student.
8:25, start the drive to campus.  Think about what we’ll do in class.  Plan conversational gambits in one of my secondary languages for a meeting later with a native speaker of that language.
9:30, decide I’m enough ahead of schedule and tired enough that I’m going to stop for coffee.
9:45, arrive at my office.  Skim essay in book checked out at 8:15.
10:00, teach a class.  Talk briefly with 3-4 students afterward about their research papers.
11:00ish, meet with independent study student.
12:00, talk with colleague about shared graduate students.
12:20, eat lunch while reading and commenting on student work.
1:00, meeting of Very Important Sub-Committee of Important Committee.
2:45, we get out 15 minutes early!  Woooot!  The time goes in watering my plants and using the restroom.
3:00, meet with grad student from another department who needs another committee member.  Strange to say, I am more or less qualified to do this.  Discuss technical matters with Other Department’s grad advisor on the phone.
3:40, breathe deeply, zone out, make tea, eat snack.
4:00, start tackling e-mail to students, library staff, colleagues; ILL assorted books needed mainly for teaching; look up call numbers for books I’m going to need to consult in our library.
5:00, get head above water (or fires put out, depending on your preferred metaphor) and pull up awful scan-from-microfilm of Current Manuscript Obsession.  Finish looking it over.  Return to MMP-3 and start revising its introduction.
6:00, decide to start the packing-up process.  Several last-minute e-mails keep me in the office till about 6:20, at which point I leave and run into a student from a study-abroad program two years ago.
6:40, leave campus.  Stop at a grocery store to pick up items Sir John couldn’t find at our local.  Stop for gas.  Get a sandwich to eat in the car and call dinner.
8:25, arrive at home.  Do a little tidying up, checking personal e-mail, and so on; then take a bath—in which I read an article I assigned to my grad students.
10:30, go to bed.


“We felt glamorous by having a lot of concurrent projects, and we felt protected and safe by our lack of constant commitment to any one of them.  We were women with several lovers. . . . Other people claim that they like having more than one project because they can shift from one to another when they have a stumbling block.  [But] I lose track and make insufficient progress on both projects.”

Virginia Valian. “Solving a Work Problem.” Scholarly Writing and Publishing: Issues, Problems, and Solutions.  Ed. Mary Frank Fox.  Boulder: Westview Press, 1985.  108-9.


“There was no point in constructing a schedule we could not live with.  There was no point in creating a schedule for someone whose work attitudes were conflict-free, because we, the people for whom the schedule was intended, were not conflict-free.  We might wish, for example, that we were people who never wasted time, but we were people who did sometimes waste time, so we explicitly designed our schedules with that in mind. . . . Most time-management formulas presuppose that the problem is managing time, [and] that problem has fairly mechanical solutions.  The real problem is figuring out what one can and will do.”

Virginia Valian, “Solving a Work Problem.” Scholarly Writing and Publishing: Issues, Problems, and Solutions.  Ed. Mary Frank Fox.  Boulder: Westview Press, 1985.  106-7.

Perception of self

“My claim is that people are not wrong about their true selves.  A related claim is that to encourage someone to doubt his or her true self is to do them the gravest psychological disservice.  Unfortunately, it is not easy to extrapolate from someone’s appearances—their words and actions—to their underlying true selves.  Until my psychoanalysis began at age 22, for example, no one had ever confirmed my perception of my true self.  I saw myself as someone who could potentially think originally and deeply about psychological issues.  Being me meant trying to understand mental functioning.  But no one else saw me that way.  My teachers and friends interpreted my symptoms, such as not going to classes and not studying, incorrectly.  They questioned all the components of my self-concept: my motivation, my commitment, my choice of subject matter, and my ability.  So did I.  How could I have done otherwise?  With no alternative hypotheses of how to interpret my behavior, I unwillingly made the same inferences they did, contradicting my self-knowledge.”

Virginia Valian, “Solving a Work Problem.” Scholarly Writing and Publishing: Issues, Problems, and Solutions.  Ed. Mary Frank Fox.  Boulder: Westview Press, 1985.  101.

Advance planning

The cognitively-restructured May-August 2013 writing group will start up here on Monday, 13 May (I’ll probably set the post to publish on Sunday, actually, for those Southern Hemisphere folks who are a day ahead).  Below, you’ll find a list of people who have demonstrated interest so far.  Some of you have even been so good as to indicate the project you’ll be working on, at least in general terms (conference paper, review article, dissertation revisions, etc).  I’d appreciate it if all of you listed would post a similar brief description of your project, even if you’ve already done so; it would be helpful to get all the information in the same spot.  You can also withhold details and give your project a pseudonym such as “Floyd” or “Project A.”

Any or all of you may well work on other projects over this period; certainly I will have multiple things in the works.  The point for this group is to pick one that you are committing to finishing by mid-August.  It might be the highest-priority project or the one that needs to get done even though it isn’t actually highest-priority.  Up to you!  Just pick something.

JaneB will run the Top Left Quadrant Group for those who want “support with making time and space for a variety of activities that matter, but aren’t yelling for attention”: those things that are important but may not be urgent.  If you’re at a point where you really want to think about how to juggle your multiple projects, or you need to think more about process, her group may be a better fit for you.  You can of course contribute to both groups.

I’m making the post-day Monday to encourage looking forward and planning ahead.  If we all worked together in an office, we’d get together on Monday morning (coffee or tea in hand, no doubt) and take turns telling each other “Here’s what I’ll do this week.”  And then we’d go to our desks and get our secretaries to bring us the Floyd Files.  I can’t provide even one secretary (samples of secretary hand, yes, if you’d like one), but I hope you’ll think of this as your Monday-morning-coffee-planning group.

Allan Wilson (formerly known as kiwi2)
Dr. Virago
hypatia cade
John Spence
Pym Fan
Sisyphus (tentative; but since I borrowed Floyd, I’m listing you!)
What Now?